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Journal Entry: Sat Jul 4, 2009, 11:05 PM
  • Mood: Devious
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  • Watching: IRC channel
  • Playing: SL
  • Drinking: Cherry Coke



I was forced to put this on my page because my curiosity got the best of me.. I blame "The-Lot-of-Us" for it... ((PS I don't know how to add links to others pages in DevArt yet, if someone that knows how, see's this.. please tell me how))

The rule is:
Leave a comment and...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours

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Stop The Homophobia

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 25, 2009, 11:25 AM


Pass this around

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

  • Mood: Outraged
  • Listening to: Portal - There is no Cake
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  • Watching: IRC channel
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Some rules/laws are stupid...

Tue Jun 9, 2009, 5:36 PM
  • Mood: Outraged
  • Listening to: Evanescense
  • Reading: Forums
  • Watching: IRC channel
  • Drinking: Water
Well today I went in to get my CCL (Concealed Carry Permit). When I got there.. they said that I had to show proof of Citizenship because I was born overseas "Seoul Korea". I am a military brat, my Dad was in the US Army... so I was born a US citizen, but now i have to prove it, even though I had a Certificate of Birth Abroad (Consular), and I even served in the US Army myself for 4 years and have my Honorable Discharge papers and DD-214 that says ON it "Citizen of the United States of America"...

I'm so pissed because now I have to go through the rigmarole of contacting an office in D.C. to get a Birth Certificate, which has a few things to be sorted out, and it's probably gonna cost me $50 a copy... *sighs*

Ok.. End rant... I'm gonna go now and shoot something.

The Life & Times of ME!!!

Fri May 22, 2009, 10:54 PM
  • Mood: Pleased
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  • Watching: IRC channel
  • Drinking: Water
Good thing I'm doing these journal entries for myself, doesn't seem to be anyone else noticing them. Oh well...

Let's see what's happened in the last week:

1) I've started my Concealed Carry Permit Class.
Wednesday was pretty funny, a lawyer is required by law to talk about the rules and regulations in oregon in regards to the CCL.

2) I had my last Dr's appointment until I get a new job w/medical insurance. Since I got laid off.. my insurance benefits end on May 31st, 2009. The good news is I just had all my prescriptions renewed, and I my blood tests show that the new HRT setup is working very well.

3) I've lost a total of 14 pounds since April 18, 2009... Woooohoooo... Here's to hoping this trend continues...

I've run out of things to put here for now... (as I said before, I've never been good at these things *writing/diary type things*)

Changes in my Life

Tue May 19, 2009, 9:08 PM
I enjoy helping people, and I "used" to really enjoy working with computers and technology, but now I'm starting to get to the point of thinking that maybe the reason I liked working in computers & technology is because I was just good at it.

But in the past I've always liked the medical field. I used to be an EMT before I joined the US Army and enjoyed it a great deal, I'm seriously thinking of going back in that direction. Either as a Nurse, a Paramedic, or possibly as a Psychologist... I'm not sure yet... but it's something I'm seriously thinking about now.

What brought this up, is something that is close to me and pulls my heart strings... I'm a Male to Female (Preoperative) Transsexual. And in the last 3 days, I've had 2 other (that believe) they are transsexuals come to me for advice. Now I did not tell them "yes, you are" neither did I say "No, you aren't". I did tell them I'm not a proffesional and that the best I could do for them is listen to them.. and tell them "MY" personal experiences, and point them to various places that may be helpful to them...

Now before anyone gets all upset.. they are both seeing (or going to see very soon) a Psychologist, and I highly recommended they see one and not to get cold feet when the appointment came. I also (many many times) told them I was not a professional and that everything I show and or tell them is strictly my opinion, and based solely off of my personal experiences.

It was enjoyable helping them...

One was a Female feeling she was a male, and not really confused, more just needing knowledge and some insight... I couldn't help her as much but I was able to listen to her without judgment, and give her (him) encouragement of the type "believe in yourself", and point him to some websites (recommended by a TS Psychologist) with information that could be helpful to him.

The most recent one was a Male feeling he was really supposed to be a girl. Again I listened without judgment, gave encouragement, and I spent a good deal of time telling them about my transition (which is still in progress). They said it was very helpful, and that it should help them a great deal when they see the Psychologist in a week or 2.

The interesting thing about this is that it was kind of a release for me too... I haven't told many people in detail about my life (from start of transition to now), and this kind of forced me to think about things I've been through and evaluate things in a different light. For example.. even though I've been laid off again, and I basically have to start over saving for my surgery again (due to paying off all my debts to be safe), I still feel relatively calm and secure in that I know I can go on, it'll just take more time (which is the only sad part I have to deal with). But it was still generally uplifting.

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On another note... I've started taking the "Concealed Carry Permit" Classes. I have 2 more (1 this Wednesday, and 1 next Wednesday). And then a Range/Qualification. If it all goes well.. I should be able to apply for my Permit by the End of this month, and I will be purchasing a new pistol within 3 months (I've put money aside for this *yes I know I could be saving for my surgery, but with the way things are going I want to be prepared to defend myself*).

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I've also applied for a job with the State... if the application goes through and I pass the background checks, the 2 tests, and the review... I have a good chance of getting the position sometime in August... If I do get it, it pays more than my last job, has better benefits (hey.. it's a government job), and it'll be much closer to home than any job I've had previously.

Oh well.. time to go take a shower, then relax somewhere and read a book or something. Laters

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  • Drinking: Water

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